I keep drawing smoke into my lungs with the hopes that it will fill the holes you left.
I have three cigarettes left,
and I still feel empty.
My throat is raw,
and my chest is burning,
but I take another drag regardless.
Because you taught me how,
and each exhale makes your smile a little clearer in my memories.
I am slowly killing myself,
with things your taught me,
so that the holes don't feel quite so large,
even though all I am doing is making them bigger.
I think you need to listen to this album, Noah and the Whale - First Day of Spring. I think you are ready, so turn the lights off, lay in your bed with your headphones up loud. I like your writing, I can feel your pain through your words. The album I suggest helps, well at least I think it does. It's all about starting over and keeping your head high.
ReplyDeleteNo, listen to this song http://youtu.be/MFq2iK8vN-o feeling bad about yourself and living with heartache and emptiness is healthy. Just look at that guy, he stabbed himself in the heart twice! Now he had some moxie!
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